Recently my life has been pure hell. There is no getting around it I am going through hell.
First of all a friend who is very close to me lost a good friend on Tuesday. All of us are worried about him very deeply. So I am going to share some very personal information about myself so if he sees this he can read it.
TD,
When I was little very little around three or four years old my mother worked at Laidlaw in Parsonsfield Maine. She used to bring me down there frequently and I would constantly be in the care of the other bus drivers. Down there I met Donna Bishop, a bus driver with some very unorthodox ways. She was a bit crazy (well okay insane) like how I am now. She could always get me to smile and laugh even when times got rough with my real dads constant abuse he put us all through. Donna named everything and she was one of the kindest people I ever knew. I grew up with her being very close to me. One day in 2008 on the 9th of November I was in sixth grade I was picked up by Lorna at my house and dropped of at Cornish Elementary to wait for my bus driver Judy. It was freezing that morning and I remember standing out there shivering wondering what the heck was going on. Then Judy pulled in about ten minutes later with Donna’s kids on her bus. I got on and sat down when I heard one of the students saying that Donna had been rushed into the hospital. I found out on the bus that afternoon that Donna had passed away on the way to the hospital. She had had an aneurysm and it had killed her. When I got home I felt nothing I was numb and completely unaware of anything going on around me. I went out and sat on a big rock in my back yard and just stared off into space asking myself why it had to be her. Soon my parents got home from work my mom and my step dad asked me what was wrong. All I could answer was “why?” and finally while we were eating dinner I looked at my parents and got choked up. I remember telling them what had happened that morning when I told my mother that Donna had been rushed into the hospital and that she had passed away. Mom cried for days and I was crying right beside her. That was over five and a half years ago and right now I am crying over it again. Thing is with death is that it never gets any easier and life goes on. The best thing to do is to remember her for who she was and to just remember she will always be with you. The memories will never fade. Though they may hurt they are what you need. Yes things will hurt but no not everything is going to hurt forever. There is plenty more that happened in that year surrounding deaths around me. The first was my sister lost her best friend in the entire world Zach Scott to cancer. Three months passed and my grandfather Roberts was rushed into the hospital and was pronounced DOA from his heart literally blowing up within his chest. Then there was Donna not even four months after that. Finally the last person I was close to died within this one year was another very close friend of mine Mr. Ed who I lost to Emphysema a very bad form of lung cancer. I still regret not being able to help or really say good bye to any of them. Sometimes there is nothing we can do. This time I know you feel awful and I may not have ever had this happen but I do know what it feels like to lose someone who is close to you.
TD, for this reason and the fact of what happened, I remember telling you I wanted to become a Sheriff but now after all of this I want to become a member of the Maine state police that way I can help prevent this from happening to any other girls. We hate seeing you suffer like this so we are here to help. If you need either of us then you can contact us through facebook under Deborah Jean Roberts for me of course and Serrisa Burnham for Serrisa. If you ever need anything do not hesitate to ask either of us or even Alex for that matter (he can be found on my profile) Just remember people up there may not be there for you but we all are here for you. We all love you TD please for our sakes let us help you.
Love your close friends,
Deb and Serrisa.
Okay onto other news.
Tomorrow morning I will be helping run the field day for Sacopee and running the game Don’t lay an egg. I will be posting a funny video on facebook and will be working my way toward singing a new song for Facebook considering the recent events. I still have not gotten my new laptop which I was promised this week but will not be getting it. Thinking about going to see the new Star Trek movie which looks amazing. I have been fighting a crippling depression for about three weeks and just now am finally feeling a little better. Meeting TD at a raider competition was the best thing to happen so far this month. In other news my school computer has finally crapped out on me. The battery cable connector port has finally went on it and has caused me to be forced to write any updates to ANY of my stories impossible! I am now just waiting so that I can get my new laptop so I can finally continue them.
Sighs loudly, fanfictions are going to have to wait a while because the writer doodlez1996 cannot figure out how the heck to update her stories from her phone.
Just a little over four weeks and I will no longer be a junior but a senior in high school and graduating in 2014. TD we seriously hope to see you soon down here and at raider competitions and at random places.
Alex and I have not gotten engaged yet but we are waiting on my parents to finally decide when and where he can propose but we have picked a date and a place.
Greenville Cemetery I think is what it was called and it is in Portland Maine. The date being October 31st 2015.
The Daily Life of Deborah Roberts 